tawakal

salam...

it's morning yoa~~

listen to tazkirah from my housemate this morning

felt so sleepy that time

but i can still listen to her words

the concept of tawakal

like a decade defenition 

tawakal come after we do something we just left it to ALLAH swt

but what i got from tazkirah this morning 

i catch one santence:

"kita redha dengan apa yang ALLAH swt bagi pada kita dan xmerungut"

masyaALLAH

that's it

ALLAH already said 

"kun fayakun.."

"Be!" And it is.'

and now i am working as assistant manager in department of business development

business?

like pfftttt~~

can u imagine i am horticulture and business is nothing in my mind

but i love management and business 

for the first 3 month (still under observation)

i am blur

BLUR!

BLUR!

BLUR!

yes!

CASH FLOW~

                         

                  BUSINESS MODEL?                          BUSINESS PLAN?                      

BREAK EVEN ANALYSIS?                                                                 BUSINESS MATURITY?

i am blur but happy

can learn new thing

but i am too slow like a siput~

run if u need to run!!!

mom the star that brighten my life

salam

seriuosly

i dont have much of my bonda pict

i dont know..sometimes i cant look to her face..

the face with a lot of wrinkle.

uncounted wrinkle show how tired and a lot of sacrifices that she poured to raised all her 5 childs

mak

the person who put so much effort for her children 

that sometimes child neglect the feeling of a mother

who sacrifices everything

feel like u are the one  mom should craving for..

if mom never care when u re crying till faint cause ur sick

if mom never sweep anti infection to ur cut

if mom just sleep all night in a dream never thinking bout her crying baby

if mom never prepare a food for us

if mom never wake us up when it is dawn for subooh prayer

if mom never nagging when we doing wrong

if mom just silent when we are sayin' that we are sad..

if one day, 

no more women called mom again to nagging, to listen, to talk, to give some sort of motivation injection in her own way..

do u think we can survive?

yezessss! ALLAH tarbiyyah but if no mother...we will never be here

mom is a great gift from ALLAH

she never let us down..

enough if she happy with us make our life feel blessed..

credit pict : wolfheartmom.blogspot.com

stop the ignorance

do ur part as a children

just listen to the nagging

that u will miss it one day

enjoyed the food and drink which is tasteless created by diabetic mother

that u will never taste it again some day

smile and look into ur mother eyes

the face that u will crave to face when u feel miserable

then u know how precious ur mother was

sms ver.2011

mak : "angah sihat x? mana angah ni?"

angah ~ Allah, lama dah aku xmsej mak

terus type msg

~~

angah: "mak, angah xtopup lagi, handphone ni bateri kong plak. nant lepas angah dah topup angah call mak"

kadng 'kesibukan' buat kita lupa ...

mak: "xpayah call pon xper..anta sms cukup.igt angah pergi mana la tadi"

yes, 

mom a craving for us coz she put us in her heart..soldering tight 

remembering us everytime

but me??

mak

ada harapan bila menatap wajahmu

just wait?

salam

today we got meeting

i feel like thunder on my head

doing something that i ve never done 

make my head spinning 

up side down

my boss said that,
"if we want to bake a cake tomorrow, we should decide it today. so that we can prepare the ingredient.."

"work for 2 month make it be 1 week"

hah???

it is about quality of time
time is just like a water flowing non stop.
we cant stop it and it will never bother to wait for us..
if we need to run, run! faster!
never wait for tomorrow..
our Prophet, Muhammad SAW said that,
"if we are in morning, dont wait for the night...."

the urgency doing thing that prophet saw ask us to do

credit: thinkones.com

doing thing..
know ur aim
be a better person perhaps..

dear yayah

alhamdulillah

I just cant believe my sister love the book I gave her.

the book I bought at Syabab Bangi

first time I saw the cover..and yes, I always judge a book by its cover..

I wont listen to what people are sayin'

my sister, called kak lah got a really big dream..

really big ..

hahha

cause I ve never got that really big dream..

hopefully she will go to Moscow..

see how far she has seeing i feel happy

high ambition that I ve never had.

my dik Na 2 years old younger than kak lah

I dont know either she oso got ambition to fly abroad like her sister

I got funny story bout her.

~~

story begin..

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since she was a small girl, she really stick to our lovely sweet mummy

until one day we asked her what she want to be when she grew up..

she said.."i just want to sell ice cream at home. so that I ll never be far from mak."

=_=" sigh~~

touching rite?

until now she got blush on her face when we repeat the same story

that was my lil sister that bright my family..

24 sept is kak lah's birthday

6 may is dik na's birthday

so i just bought for both of them a book.

one book is about the experience of the writer go to Eau Claire, Canada..to further her studies there

++ dear yayah..++
until my kak lah says "when i read that book, i feel myself at canada..that was an awesome book.can u buy dear yayah again to me?"
waaa..
i am so glad. long time i try to persuade them to be closed with book.especially islamic book.

alhamdulillah ..
my kak lah and dikna.. i ll bought u another dear yayah series..

other book is about solat hajat and story about one companion of our beloved prophet saw..

love u both~

seeking for that moment

salam

hello world.

just now my mood is swinging...

hahhaha

i am not really sure oso

my work now mountain badly but i cant even finish it 

ya..cause it is mountain la..

every morning at 7.30 am, I'm waiting for Acik Nong came to fetch me

if Acik Nong go to gym to fit herself
I'll as my older sister, kak Yong or my cute sister kak Afzan to send me at the crabby...

Acik Nong will get married this december.

and i will the only single and the bright flower in this house...hmm

we came to the office when the moon is still smiling..
And back home until the moon replace the sun back..

oh sun, long time no see. aha

sometime I really miss to look up to the sky..

see the blue bright wide ocean up on my head~

i miss to feel how cold the wind blowing

want to touch the water from the sky..

i ve a dream to touch the white cotton floating thing ..

how was it feel..?

soft?

can i put it in the bottle and keep it with me?

this is real..i am working night and back home night..

i still hve my life at this house. 

and i miss my home..

kisah di suatu konvo~

salam..

suasana konvo

...

panas terik

perut lapar

mengantuk

ramai sgt org

udara jadi panas dek tingginya co2 dalam udara

suara manusia berdengung2

bercampur lelaki dan perempuan

semua mencari2 halatuju masing2

mencari mak ayah dalam kesendatan manusia

telefon mnelefon

mencerita setiap tanda2 untuk menghuraikan tempat dia berdiri

sesekali bertukar tempat di tepi kipas

membeli air jus mangga ais atau kelapa penghilang dahaga

membeli makanan pelapik perut..

masih punya peluang itu...

berdebar2 tgok kawan2 naik amek scroll..

semua ambik scroll dengan wajah yang ceria..

tersenyum sipu..

aku sudah menjadi seorang graduat..

mungkin terasa...

yeah! aku telah meluahkan segala2nya dalam blaja..

bagi yang dapat anugerah naib canselor..

namanya digema2..

tepukan gemuruh from the floor~

yang mendengar sudah cukup menderaukan darah

apatah lagi penerima scroll tu..

pasti melonjak2 riang dalam hatinya..

saya juga dapat merasainya even saya bukanlah bakal budak naib canselor..

alhamdulillah dan tahniah jugak buat diri saya..well done angah~heheh

bagi yang dapat satu bintang atau tak ada bintang lansung..

kaki digagahkan jua ...

melangkah dengan senang hati...

akhirnya..

aku sudah habis belajar~

transcript yang bak kata kawan saya , leh buat naik gaji...ahahah

dah keluar dewan..

sesi amek2 gamba..gaya dengan DSLR lebih penting dari gaya si graduat..hahah

buat kenangan pakai baju konvo, hook ngan topinye tu..

wau..nampak gah sekali~

tak kurang jugak nak mek gamba dengan kosmate..

dengan bakal suami dan bakal isteri masing2..haish..

yang dah bawak baby pon de...alhamdulillah..

ad gak a gang2 yang dibawak khas mungkin untuk menghuru harakan lagi masjlis..

yang menyanyi dan mangangkat2 member yang grad tu..

huru-hare..memang~

huh...

tapi apa2 pon..i wanna say congratz to my fren nor azian othman...

grad bt kali kedua..kali ni aku menyempatkan diri untuk meraikan~

seronok tgok mmber happy...

semoga sntiasa dalam rahmat ALLAH dan ceria selaloo

dipermudahkan urusan pertunangan dan pernikahan in the future..

aaameen..

back to konvo...

.....

bayangkan saja ya pembaca (jika ada)

tika saat kepanasan di suatu tempat yang panas teriknya luar biasa..

dikatakan akan menggelegak isi kepala..

masa tu mungkin saat panas membahang kita harap ada tempat teduh..

tapi tiada tempat nak berlindung dan berteduh 

yang ada hanya ALLAH swt

disaat kita sudah lupa perihal mak abah kita

adik2

kawan2

teman2 yang ada bersama kita didunia ni...

semua itu ada didunia...

tapi disana kita sendiri2..

masa untuk dihisab..

bukan untuk beramal..

disini kita masih tersenyum walau result kita tak seberapa..

dapat scroll dah cukup besar..

tapi disana ALLAH beri kita 'scroll' or transcript keputusan samada diterima tangan kiri atau kanan..

menerima 'scroll' dengan tangan yang berbeza cukup buat kita gerun...

who knows?

mungkin kita bleh menilai diri kita.

 sekali dengan video exclusive sepanjang kehidupan kita akan dipaparkan

semua akan mengharapkan kebaikan dari ALLAH
"ya ALLAH matikanlah kami dalam keadaan HUsnul Khotimah dan bukanlah kematian suul khotimah"
aaameen

masyaALLAH.. this is great!

assalamualaikum wbt

kepada yang membaca post ni..

SELAMAT HARI RAYE YER..

lame xnulis..tetibe teringat sebab ade member yang tyer..

xpela..

ade jugak pembaca blog ni...

haha..

status sekarang adalah dah berpunya...

punya kerja..masyaALLAH alhamdulillah...

aku adalah wanita yang berkerjaya.

(oh ye..kerja mengedit repot belum berlangsung lagi..kahkah..my friend called me FB maniac.)

angah: "mak, angah nak sambung master.."
abah:  (memandang dengan confuse) "buat ape sambung master..ape master2?"
angah: "alah..sambung master pon dapat gaji la abah"
mak: "suka hati hang la ngah.."

pastu dah mngalami sindrom2 yang kurang mnyenangkan
confuse lagi..
aku nak sambung master...
oh yeah...dari situ start la
tanya la segala nasihat dari senior..cane nak sambung master

siap email kat sorang Dr kat fakulti pendidikan department kaunseling..

eh..bukan2..
bukan saya nak jumpe kaunselor..
tak2..
saya nak jadi kaunselor..
ahahah
jangan ketawa..saya ni bleh dikatakan berpotensi tau
masa belajar dlu aku adalah motivator ble kawan2 aku nangis..
ahahah..
lucu x lucu..
aku nak jadi gak kaunselor

pastu pusing2 kpale mikir..tunggu lagi email dari Dr berkenaan..
hampa..
no email received from her..

lepas aku abeh buat lesen tu la aku balik umah.menganggur 2 bulan lebih ase.
seriously mmg teruk..
kawan aku dok sogok2 suh ikut dia p kuantan.cari keja kat sana..
aku pon cakap kat mak..
"mak, angah nak p kuantan..nak cari keja kerani.."
"pergi la..ade duit x?"
MAK!ANGAH TERHARU BILA MAK SOKONG ANGAH

pastu aku p la kuantan.
jangan xpercaya aku nak p kuantan cari kerja kerani jer,
pastu aku p satu agensi pekerjaan tu,
adoi..mcam kena tipu jer,,
kerja apa pon xpanggil
mungkin sebab xcukup qualification nak jadi kerani ni..
sebb bagi aku kerja la apa pon asal halal..
aku xkesah
alhamdulillah..
aku xdapat keja
dalam masa cari2 kerja tu kawan aku (yang bakal nikah 24 sept ni 2011) gtau aku ade kerja kosong dekat serdang
TADIKA beb!
percaya atau x..aku cakap kat mak
"mak, angah nak p serdang.ade kerja kosong.cg tadika.dorang cakap confirm dapat.."
perkataan "confirm" disitu adalah utk mmbuatkan mak bagi pegi..
ahaha
ok..mula la journey p tadika..
fuh..agak mencabar..skali dapat pak cik teksi yang haish..malasla nak cakap..
sampai nak langgar moto..
hm...
dan akhirnya aku tiba..
lepas interview alhamdulillah aku dpat keja cg tadika
sepanjang Ramadhan aku keja cg tadika
kerjanya mudah
tapi agak penat..
love all the child.
pertengahan masa aku jadi teacher tu ade panggilan interview.
so aku p jelah.
sebnarnya mmg aku ad 3 buln perjanjian dengn bos tadika.
tapi aku cakap sblm tu if dapat kerja tetap aku nak quit la.
alhamdulillah aku interview harini, esok dapat panggilan
"bos saya nak awak bekerja dengan kami.so ble bleh masuk?"
alhamdulillah!
ya ALLAH Kau Yang Maha Memberi Rezeki...
sebelum tu aku ada baca novel yang sarat dengan info pasal solat dhuha.
apa yang berlaku kepada watak akan dikaitkan dengan solat dhuha
solat dhuha bukan sahaj didirikan semata2 mengahrapkan rezeki dari ALLAH swt tetapi kita sebagai hambaNYA memperuntukkan masa sedikit untuk solat mngingati Dia disaat semua org masih leka dengan kerja.
aku cube amalkan mana yang aku mampu..
dan ketenangan dapat dirasa
org selaloo pertikai
"cukup ke dengan gaji banyak tu? (masa kerja tadika)
aku sangat berlapang dada...
cukuplah dengan apa yang ALLAH berikan kepada aku..
aku pon tak tahu nak cakp either sikap aku yang jenis tak amek kesah sangat ni betul ke x..
kadang2 aku jadi mcam tak tahu pape sebab bnyak menda aku buat 'dek' je

sekarang ni kerja..alhamdulillah..
wish u all the best angah!
love urself