if here is a mom, there must be a dad

.....In The Name of ALLAH the Most Gracious the Most Merciful......

salam
I called him , Abah
abah juara satu-satunya!
time that I was a little girl..I am too closed to my abah
he is loving and caring
just the only abah that i have
all sort of story between me and my abah
the time that he makes my life happy
the time i broke abah's heart
the time abah slapped on my face
the time that i make abah happy

abah,
put all his effort
working under bright and hot burning sun
my abah got an accident on his way back home from his work place
his arm was broken
the pain...
but he never give up
wake up in the morning
go to work
his life ...his life
 nothing can i describe

but just wanna say
the deep appreciation i dedicate to my abah!
the love that never written here~

:: saat manusia lain...::

salam

saat manusia lain berkobar-kobar melaungkan kata semangat dan nadi berdetak

aku masih disini..entah menanti apakah?!

saat manusia lain berkorban masa dan tenaga menyusun segala stratergi

aku masih disini...melawan diri sendiri

saat manusia lain bingkas bangun menuju Tuhan mereka

aku masih disini...diselubungi selimut diri

saat manusia lain benar-benar merasakan iman mereka naik

aku masih disini.. bersama ego ku

saat manusia lain bersama-sama menyemarakkan rasa cinta seiman
aku masih disini...memandang sepi dan akhirnya menyepi

saat manusia lain memikirkan segala hal ttg dunia nya untuk akhirat
aku masih disini..memikirkan sesuatu tanpa kesudahan!

saat aku terjelupuk jatuh
dan aku masih jatuh

saat aku sibuk memikirkan dunia
cukuplah Allah menitipkan surat cintaNYA..
menyapa ku mengatakan:

"katakanlah (Muhammad) kepada hamba-hambaKu yang telah beriman, "Hendaklah mereka melaksanakan solat, menginfakkan sebahagian rezeki yang Kami berikan secara sembunyi atau terang-terangan sebelum datang hari, ketika tiada lagi jual beli dan persahabatan."
 AQ surah 14 ayat 31

saat aku tidak merasakan berat dosa menggunungku ini.
cukuplah pesan tazkirah ini menyedarkan aku:

nasfu yang paling tidak disebut disebabkan ketidak gunaan manusia yang memiliki nafsu itu..
nafsu yang sombrono
yang tidak merasakan berat dosanya dan tidak merasa untuk melakukan ibadah

:: refleksi diri::

saat aku merasa berat kerana manusia-manusia
cukuplah pesanan ini buat diriku...
"ALLAH yang memegang hati manusia dan aku perlu lakukannya bersungguh2"

saat aku merasa diriku ini makin jauh padaNya
perasaan itu teruk
namun tetap ku syukuri
yaALLAH entah apalah kebaikan yang aku buat hingga Engkau membalasku dengan berjuta dan tak terhitung kebaikkan MU itu..
yaALLAH entah apalah yang aku lakukan yang membuat Mu redha denganku
hingga nikmat Mu menggunung kepadaku

aku malu
aku sedih
aku binggung
aku lemah
aku bodoh

namun ya ALLAH
aku titipkan rasa syukur menggunung ya ALLAH

tawakal

salam...

it's morning yoa~~

listen to tazkirah from my housemate this morning

felt so sleepy that time

but i can still listen to her words

the concept of tawakal

like a decade defenition 

tawakal come after we do something we just left it to ALLAH swt

but what i got from tazkirah this morning 

i catch one santence:

"kita redha dengan apa yang ALLAH swt bagi pada kita dan xmerungut"

masyaALLAH

that's it

ALLAH already said 

"kun fayakun.."

"Be!" And it is.'

and now i am working as assistant manager in department of business development

business?

like pfftttt~~

can u imagine i am horticulture and business is nothing in my mind

but i love management and business 

for the first 3 month (still under observation)

i am blur

BLUR!

BLUR!

BLUR!

yes!

CASH FLOW~

                         

                  BUSINESS MODEL?                          BUSINESS PLAN?                      

BREAK EVEN ANALYSIS?                                                                 BUSINESS MATURITY?

i am blur but happy

can learn new thing

but i am too slow like a siput~

run if u need to run!!!

mom the star that brighten my life

salam

seriuosly

i dont have much of my bonda pict

i dont know..sometimes i cant look to her face..

the face with a lot of wrinkle.

uncounted wrinkle show how tired and a lot of sacrifices that she poured to raised all her 5 childs

mak

the person who put so much effort for her children 

that sometimes child neglect the feeling of a mother

who sacrifices everything

feel like u are the one  mom should craving for..

if mom never care when u re crying till faint cause ur sick

if mom never sweep anti infection to ur cut

if mom just sleep all night in a dream never thinking bout her crying baby

if mom never prepare a food for us

if mom never wake us up when it is dawn for subooh prayer

if mom never nagging when we doing wrong

if mom just silent when we are sayin' that we are sad..

if one day, 

no more women called mom again to nagging, to listen, to talk, to give some sort of motivation injection in her own way..

do u think we can survive?

yezessss! ALLAH tarbiyyah but if no mother...we will never be here

mom is a great gift from ALLAH

she never let us down..

enough if she happy with us make our life feel blessed..

credit pict : wolfheartmom.blogspot.com

stop the ignorance

do ur part as a children

just listen to the nagging

that u will miss it one day

enjoyed the food and drink which is tasteless created by diabetic mother

that u will never taste it again some day

smile and look into ur mother eyes

the face that u will crave to face when u feel miserable

then u know how precious ur mother was

sms ver.2011

mak : "angah sihat x? mana angah ni?"

angah ~ Allah, lama dah aku xmsej mak

terus type msg

~~

angah: "mak, angah xtopup lagi, handphone ni bateri kong plak. nant lepas angah dah topup angah call mak"

kadng 'kesibukan' buat kita lupa ...

mak: "xpayah call pon xper..anta sms cukup.igt angah pergi mana la tadi"

yes, 

mom a craving for us coz she put us in her heart..soldering tight 

remembering us everytime

but me??

mak

ada harapan bila menatap wajahmu

just wait?

salam

today we got meeting

i feel like thunder on my head

doing something that i ve never done 

make my head spinning 

up side down

my boss said that,
"if we want to bake a cake tomorrow, we should decide it today. so that we can prepare the ingredient.."

"work for 2 month make it be 1 week"

hah???

it is about quality of time
time is just like a water flowing non stop.
we cant stop it and it will never bother to wait for us..
if we need to run, run! faster!
never wait for tomorrow..
our Prophet, Muhammad SAW said that,
"if we are in morning, dont wait for the night...."

the urgency doing thing that prophet saw ask us to do

credit: thinkones.com

doing thing..
know ur aim
be a better person perhaps..

dear yayah

alhamdulillah

I just cant believe my sister love the book I gave her.

the book I bought at Syabab Bangi

first time I saw the cover..and yes, I always judge a book by its cover..

I wont listen to what people are sayin'

my sister, called kak lah got a really big dream..

really big ..

hahha

cause I ve never got that really big dream..

hopefully she will go to Moscow..

see how far she has seeing i feel happy

high ambition that I ve never had.

my dik Na 2 years old younger than kak lah

I dont know either she oso got ambition to fly abroad like her sister

I got funny story bout her.

~~

story begin..

~~

since she was a small girl, she really stick to our lovely sweet mummy

until one day we asked her what she want to be when she grew up..

she said.."i just want to sell ice cream at home. so that I ll never be far from mak."

=_=" sigh~~

touching rite?

until now she got blush on her face when we repeat the same story

that was my lil sister that bright my family..

24 sept is kak lah's birthday

6 may is dik na's birthday

so i just bought for both of them a book.

one book is about the experience of the writer go to Eau Claire, Canada..to further her studies there

++ dear yayah..++
until my kak lah says "when i read that book, i feel myself at canada..that was an awesome book.can u buy dear yayah again to me?"
waaa..
i am so glad. long time i try to persuade them to be closed with book.especially islamic book.

alhamdulillah ..
my kak lah and dikna.. i ll bought u another dear yayah series..

other book is about solat hajat and story about one companion of our beloved prophet saw..

love u both~

seeking for that moment

salam

hello world.

just now my mood is swinging...

hahhaha

i am not really sure oso

my work now mountain badly but i cant even finish it 

ya..cause it is mountain la..

every morning at 7.30 am, I'm waiting for Acik Nong came to fetch me

if Acik Nong go to gym to fit herself
I'll as my older sister, kak Yong or my cute sister kak Afzan to send me at the crabby...

Acik Nong will get married this december.

and i will the only single and the bright flower in this house...hmm

we came to the office when the moon is still smiling..
And back home until the moon replace the sun back..

oh sun, long time no see. aha

sometime I really miss to look up to the sky..

see the blue bright wide ocean up on my head~

i miss to feel how cold the wind blowing

want to touch the water from the sky..

i ve a dream to touch the white cotton floating thing ..

how was it feel..?

soft?

can i put it in the bottle and keep it with me?

this is real..i am working night and back home night..

i still hve my life at this house. 

and i miss my home..